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i got ill

a friend was like "i really like your blog" and also was like "i like how upfront you are that your current rate of posting will not last, and is in fact early January energy"

well, guess what? it did not last. i got ill instead. i think it's the flu? lots of snot, developing into a cough, with a stretch in the middle there where i think i was a little feverish. yesterday i did some really heroic amounts of napping, before (and i was worried about this) sleeping through the night. today is a little better, but i did not make it to clown class.

and this is the worst thing about getting ill, in my book - it's the sense of isolation, it's the way that i feel disconnected from all the stuff i had happening in my life beforehand. my POTS means that hitting a crash or getting some other illness that incapacitates me for a few weeks now happens kinda often (a few times a year), and while i am grateful for the reflex that makes me just immediately dump all my ongoing responsibilities to focus on getting better (it's the response that's best for my health, for sure), the situation of getting a little better and going... what was i doing? how can i catch up on all this? i feel lonely and isolated and i don't have any plans planned... it's not my favourite.

anyway, i do seem to be on the mend, so hopefully in a day or two i can start picking up the things i have committed to doing. i'm finding myself making lists already, so that's encouraging. and also writing blog posts.

  • a big book from the 50s on clay chemistry. probably gonna stop reading it now, it's got onto glaze & i don't have that many pressing glaze questions
  • The Tainted Cup by Robert Jackson Bennett - started this, seems good so far, enjoying the worldbuilding & the energy between the protagonist & his boss
  • A City On Mars by Kelly and Zach Weinersmith - continues to be entertaining & factual. although there's a bit where they take against the entire concept of auto-ethnography, i think unjustly.
  • the first hour of Barry Lyndon - a good film but too many people doing foolish things to be an easy watch
  • random snatches of Games Done Quick - great as always, but a bit too hectic for my struggling brain
  • First Blood - right at the start when i still had brain, Letterboxd review here. fantastic film.
  • lots of jigsaw game

oh, and

very glad i got a flu shot, tbh