it's my birthday

writing "it's my birthday" on social media feels too obviously begging for attention but linking to a blog post saying that, even making this self-referential comment in the first bit which will be included in the little share text that gets included... that feels fine.

what am I doing for my birthday?

well* right now I'm sitting at the nice cafe near my house. it's not yet start-of-work time so I guess I could do this every morning? might be nice. I'm outside so I'm in the sunshine. and listening to nearby roadworks and next to a ventilation bit that's ejecting hot air.

later I'm going to the nice outdoor sauna with Eleanor. it was going to be with Arlo but they pulled a muscle and apparently it's bad to mix that with heat. honestly I just wanted to go to the sauna, irrespective of birthday, and it was booked out so far in advance I decided to go in a weekday afternoon and take a day off for my birthday to justify it.

and then in the evening I'm going out to do karaoke with a bunch of friends! what a good thing to do to celebrate a birthday! but it's to celebrate Ellis's birthday not mine. I am the opposite of mad, I like karaoke and I've not had to do any organisation.

I guess I'm writing this because I'm a little stressed by having a day off to do enjoyable things! I mean I don't have a job anyway (I do have work but that's different). but the self imposed constraints of a daytime where I'm not working and I don't just do regular things or read the internet, where I Make The Most Of It, that feels like pressure! ironic because the point is the opposite.

wow maybe I should just go home now and self indulgently do some programming trying to get the Downpour backend to talk to the Firebase FCM servers. (I am not going to do this, I have A Plan, I am going to read comics instead)

and then some other day I will do the organisational task I have been putting off, which is to organise an actual birthday party for myself. maybe.

happy birthday to me! I think it will be a nice day.

* absolute irritation directed at the Ghost blogging platform for not letting me enter a new line here, but instead insisting on a paragraph. on a computer I could shift-enter, but not on a phone! also for making it painful to do footnotes. also for not automatically scrolling when the thing I'm typing goes offscreen. wow it's annoying to write a blog on my phone, it's only merely okay to write it in the notes app and paste it. okay anyway send